Some words can explain a act and a fact, others can explain a feeling and a life. These months I founded one word that does describe a necessity, in really my necessity: rest. And that´s it made me understand a little more about the coverage of the meaning of faith.
Time to time appears thinks, dreams, ideas, opportunities, troubles, feelings, in addition to form a storm, a hurricane in our minds where every is conflict, and try to get away is wearing and seems pointless. Maybe the solution would be stop thinking, but we aren´t so, our lives aren´t so. If I stop thinking, others thinks will appears; if I stop dreaming, absolutely others dreams will appears. So stop to do these things is going on in other storm, a bigger storm, cause in our minds all it will add up, we never leave our minds empty, in fact we try think in other things.
That doesn´t mean there isn´t solution. Let me try explaining. I thought that I would explode, but something prevented, like a strait jacket. But this force was smooth, good. I began to base that, and little by little my mind improved and I recognized that force. I can remember the stories about heroes of the past. Abel, Noah, Abraham, Jacob, Moses, all of them lived in age of wars, hungry, troubles, and they died without seeing the promise with theirs human eyes. But with faith all of them seeing the promise with their spiritual eyes, and us know that the promise was obey. Moses would have gone by cost, however God order him, and he gone by desert and die before seeing Jerusalem.
Now I know! I was done with thinks, dreams, feelings, my life was done with opportunities and troubles, but I don´t need scared, just have faith. Not worry about getting the goal. But do what God ask for us. Simple that.  Rest in Lord.
My work is believing, hug the Lord who cares of me and love me.

“All these came to their end in faith, not having had the heritage; but having seen it with delight far away, they gave witness that they were wanderers and not of the earth.” Hb 11:13